Been a long time I know. I have gone through an assortment of emotions ranging from wanting to hit him over the head with something hard and hide the body in the woods to getting on my knees begging him to love me.

I am now at the point of "screw him". I am ready to go. Have  spent the last 2 weeks packing and cleaning. I know....I know....why are you cleaning the  house Nicole? Why did I get on my knees and beg?

We are officially seperated. I filed the papers May 15th and he was some ticked off. Have not been able to figure that one out. He now owns the house and the nice new huge mortgage and I own the car and a not huge but enough to get by on for a year or so amount of money. We...get this....sleep in the same bed. He is home every night and has gained about 35 pounds. I think he got dumped by her. It would never have lasted anyway but it gives me a little happy feeling to know he got hurt.

Once I am moved and back in Edmonton I will start to write again. Looking forward to good times with my kids and grandkids and not so good times with my Mom who is already opening my re-routed mail and telling me how to live.

 

I am okay....much better then even 2 months ago. I am gonna be just fine.